Monday, June 26, 2006
Here By Me
I won't give anymore excuses as to why my blog is updated spasmodically. I've run out of them actually... haha... In any case, I think I found out my greatest weakness: impulse buying (very much like a girl, right?)! Was at the vicinity of AppleCentre@Orchard yesterday having lunch when I decided to just step into the store for just a minute. Little that I know that that minute turned out to be a purchase mission to buy my new iPod 30G Black! Whooopeee! I've always been fantasizing about it (I know that I already own a iPod Mini, but hey... it's the original iPod!).
Ok.. enough about my impulses. I realised that I've grown up alot ever since the last time I spoke to Ridge last June. I'm more prepared now to share, with a certain aura of maturity (I hope). God really does do that to you I guess. Regardless of the trials that He puts us through, it's always for a purpose. His sovereignty isn't just applied here but everywhere else in our daily lives, be it career options, relationships, friends, family etc etc... everything is put in place with an ultimate purpose in mind, and it is in this ultimate purpose that we must put our faith in, trusting that whatever the outcome, it is for our best interests.
As Doc John Lustre said yesterday with reference to Psalms 42-43, we must always uplift Christ even when we are down-trodden and burdened, regardless of the problem, always praise Him first. And then through Him find joy in the problems before us and seek solutions, not by our strength but His. By doing this, we can find our purpose and joy in having Christ as our Lord and Saviour.
I don't know if I've blogged this song before, Here by Me by 3 Doors Down. Sometimes I do feel like this... when I'm spiritually dry, or when Ling isn't around. I thought that this was an appropriate enough song...
I hope you're doing fine out there without me
'Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years?
Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,
And living without you...
And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.
I can't take another day without you
'Cause baby, I could never make it on my own
I’ve been waiting so long, just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
Sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love...
And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.
As the days grow long I see
That time is standing still for me
When you're not here
Sorry I can't always find the words to say
Everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love
And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.
And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.
Take it easy, Keep it real...
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Cuppy Cake
You're my hunny bun, sugar plum, pumpy upmy upmy upmkin.
You're my sweetie pie.
You're my cuppy cake,gumdrop,shyummkums pure,
The apple of my eye!
And I love you so, and I want you to know that i'll always be right here.
And I love to sing this song to you
Because you are so dear!
Cute right?
For you Ling
Take it easy, Keep it real...
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
It really has been a long time and hectic week...
Work seems to be an endless throng for the past week (ok... it may not be the best reason not to update my blog, but at least I'm trying to come up with some excuse!). But truth be told, is this really working life? Els says that I concern myself too much about things, that I try to take on too many responsibilities at the same time. Hmmm... maybe. I do realise that at times, I do volunteer my services not because it is in my scope of work, but because I'm inclined to for whatever reason. Is this a character flaw? Do I poke my nose into too many situations that at the end of the day, I find myself bogged down with too much stuff with no time for my own?
Which brings me to think about the way I approach friendships. I feel that I'm inclined (by virtue of me being a friend) to offer a listening ear, or even an advice or two to whoever is in need of it. Some would say that I'm a compulsive kaypo (for those that aren't in the know, kaypo is the Singlish equivalent of a busybody). Maybe I'm just overly concerned for the well-being of my closest friends. So how does this link up to the things that I'm experiencing now?
I'm overly concerned for the future of this school given its resources and leaders now instead of just concentrating on the work that is at hand. Furthermore, I keep thinking that I'm overall responsible for this organisation and its organs. Should I care so much? Is it really my baby or do I just think that it is? Maybe I shouldn't be thinking too much and just get on with what is in front of me.
Take it easy, Keep it real...
Monday, June 05, 2006
Of Family...
How many of you out there grouse about how unfeeling your parents are? Or how they fail to understand you and even fail to empathise with your pangs? Recently, actually yesterday, I met up with some sisters from church and this subject was broached.
I realise that everyone (here referring to teenager/ child)has his/her own needs and idealistic thoughts of how a family should behave. Some have it, but most just idealise about it. And sometimes, it just ain't realistic. Every family, by virtue of it being made up of different unique individuals, have their own special characteristics. Some are distant yet supportive, and some are close knit yet protective. Everyone and everything are just different, different, different!
But wait a minute... so far, we have agreed that each of us have our own needs (pertaining to the family realm) and also idealise what a family should and shouldn't be (maybe it's Hollywood, but that's a different argument here). What we fail to do other than setting a benchmark for our families, is to actually see the 'haves and the have nots'. What do I mean? Basically, most of the times, we are so caught up with our needs and wants (call it self-centredness if you will) that we discount and forget what we already have.
Meaning, have we ever stopped for a moment to see that we are already so blessed? I agree that not everyone does it, but can we at least be conscious of the fact that we don't try, and that we should at least consider what we already have in our lives especially in the family?
Take it easy, Keep it real...
Thursday, June 01, 2006
Right or Wrong?
I know that I've done many dangerous things, of which some are on the borders of legal infringements. Which brings me to question: if there is a need to help anyone, and this causes you to break the law, how would you evaluate the situation and differentiate between what is right and wrong to do? Bigger question: morality?
I don't really know, and I'm not about to say that I stand on some superior moral platform, however, I do recognise that I at times, I tend to help others without any thought whatsoever, and this has landed me in seriously hot soup before. However, I also do recognise that this definition of what is right and wrong (morally) does at times infringe on the freedoms of others (which is why we have laws in the very first place).
But what I hate, is that others misinterpret my intentions as mischievous when all I ever wanted to do was to help others. It may be dubious in nature... but nevertheless with good intentions.
Take it easy, Keep it real...
